bankroll management (or lack thereof)

I've been reading many a poker blog over the last couple of months, and playing poker damn near every night. Mostly 180 person 4.40s on PS. The last couple of nights i've been playing micro limits on PS... .10/.25, where my fellow donkeys and I like to trade chips.

The thing i'm struggling w/ most right now is bankroll management. 'Struggling' isn't really the word though. Here's how things have gone over the last couple of days:

Friday night i'm damn near broke (pretty common occurence for me), so i fund PS w/ about 35 dollars. I decide to play 3 or 4 MTTs at 4 bucks a pop, leaving me just under 20 dollars. I bust out of all but one of them, each time getting my money in w/ the best hand (twice AA!) and losing (TT and AQo dominate AA!!!!)... I stay in the last tourney and continue to make good reads/lay downs, and chip up for 3+ hours.

Somewhere in the 3rd hour, i decide to sit at a micro limit table w/ my last 20 bucks. W/in 45 minutes, I have tripled my money and decide to cash out at $60+ so I can focus my efforts on the final table of the aforementioned MTT.

It's now after 3 a.m. and i REALLY need to get to bed. I have to be up at 8 to drive to New Mexico for a friend's wedding, but it's been so long since i've actually reached a final table, that I just can't see throwing in the towel... I'll sleep later...

Long story short (no hand histories, sorry), i end up making it to heads-up, where i of course offer to chop... My opponent doesn't have anywhere else to be, so naturally he wants to keep playing. I finally call his A2 push w/ a meager KTstd... my T on the flop can't compete w/ his A on the turn and that's all she wrote. $140 more dollars in the bankroll.

Saturday I didn't play any poker due to the wedding, and Sunday when we got home, i just played break even poker at the cash tables. I logged out Sunday night w/ the same 200+ in my account.

Monday I played on and off throughout the day, and only managed to add about 20 bucks to the total. Still, i was pretty happy w/ how i played, hitting trips a couple times and getting paid off, TPTK holding up, etc. Then Monday night it all went to shit. I was 4 tabling at the micro limits, and just went completely flop dead. I was getting a lot of decent starting cards, quite a few pocket pairs and such, and even flopped a couple str8s w/ suited connectors. But other than the str8s, i just couldn't hit a flop to save my life. It seemed like all of my Cbets were getting called, my opponent's draws just kept hitting, I kept losing the kicker war (my K to his A), it was just a shitty run... Somehow, someway i ended up losing 180 dollars in about 4 hours, while only playing about 28% of the hands dealt to me, and winning half of those pots. It was quite a display of poker ineptness... winning small pots and losing big ones... The exact opposite of how things are supposed to go.

So as I write this, I can clearly see where I went wrong. I obv. should have quit playing once i lost my 3rd $25 buy-in, but i just couldn't peel myself away from the table. I guess i really do have a genuine addiction to this game. I'm going to have to figure out a way to distract myself once i start losing. Maybe i can talk myself into playing some other game when the poker gods are no longer smiling on me.

I've been trying to get time to play in the Mookie, Riverchasers, or the MATH, but so far I haven't been able to free up that much time on a M, W, or F. The lil' lady gets severely pissed off when i play poker all the time, so I have to be wary of that every time I go to play... especially tournaments since they take so long. But on the outside chance that I end up playing in one of the bloggerments, and you guys end up reading this, know that I've been trying to get there for quite some time...

Is it a bad sign if i'm going to the library to play poker online at lunch?